Obedience over entitlement

Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God."

Yesterday I sat down to write a guided devotion to help you discern God's voice. What greater way to lead you after you just surrendered right? But as I began typing, I kept hitting the back space over and over. I was frustrated and couldn't understand why I just couldn't operate in my gift tonight. I felt completely defeated.

I prayed multiple times....and still nothing. I remember thinking, "God, You called me. I keep showing up, what's the issue"? Then it hit me. I was writing out of my own desire, not His direction. The urgency I felt to write wasn't coming from Him that night, it was from me. I've grown so excited about learning to recognize His voice that I was eager to help you experience that too. But the hard truth is, Led With Love Called To Lead was never first mine to begin with. This ministry God planted in my heart is His.

In that moment, the Holy Spirit gently reminded me: this part of the story isn't approved for you to share yet. And I just sat there in awe. I realized God was teaching me something more important attached to calling. It wasn't about meeting a deadline or just writing a devotion because I wanted to. That my gift was not my own and He is in control. Even in this teachable moment I wrestled with the fact that I still have free will. I could keep writing out of frustration and let disobedience lead, or I could rest in His presence and wait.

So, I chose to honor God and be still. I spent last night soaking in Proverbs and sitting in prayer, asking God when it would be time to share about hearing His voice. Then I looked up at the wall and saw a piece of decor I had put up in my room a few months ago. Proverbs 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God," I laughed because He is always right and on time. I was still rushing. I thought about Saul, how He was anointed, yet He lost His mind due to His disobedience. And it reminded me that being called doesn't mean I get to move ahead of God, it means I submit to Him. What I originally wanted to write was deeper and more personal, but God said to save that for another time. This moment- This-lesson was enough.

A lot of people won't share their raw, uncomfortable moments in ministry. But I believe there's something beautiful about showing how God teaches us, that His strength carries us in our weakness. and His grace is truly sufficient. If you take anything from this, remember: When God calls you, it's not a free pass to go where you want and say what you want- It's an invitation to submit and allow His will to be done through you. It's not just about hearing His voice... It's about what He's shaping in you while He speaks.

I truly believe that when God knows He can trust you with His voice is when He will speak more often. He will make it evident because when your heart is open to Him you desire alignment more than favor. I love you all so much! Thank you for growing with me and supporting Led With Love Called To Lead. God is using me as a vessel, but I'm still learning and growing every day.

Reflection: If you have been praying for God to speak to you, I encourage you to take time to reflect on why you desire His voice. Are you willing to respond with obedience when He speaks? If He answers you in a way, you least expect, will you still trust His guidance? Sometimes we long to hear Him, but we also have to be honest with ourselves about whether we are ready to follow what He says.

Closing Prayer: Lord, I pray for every soul who is desperate to hear Your voice. I ask that You give them the discernment to recognize when You are speaking. I pray for those who are waiting on You, that they would wait with expectancy, knowing that You are always speaking, even when we do not recognize it.

I pray that every heart would begin to seek You intentionally, not just for answers, but for relationship. Give them the obedience You desire, the patience to wait, and the faith to trust Your guidance in every way You choose to speak.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.